Song for today: "Crucified with Christ"/Artist: Phillips, Craig & Dean
Choosing a song was easy; choosing a picture was not. I spent a few minutes this morning looking for a picture to go with today's post, but I just couldn't find one. I couldn't think of anything I had that would represent a crucified life. If I had a picture of a railroad spike or something that resembled the nails used for crucifixion that might have been appropriate, but I didn't.
I am frustrated and sad because I know that in the last couple of weeks I have been spending more time fantasizing about fleshly things than yielding to the Spirit. Whether those fleshly things are recreational, professional, perfectionism, or whatever is not as important as the fact that it points me to my current state of discontent.
I am moving forward, but there are warning signs that say "Matt, you're off-base." Most of my self-medicating habits of the past are gone, but one that is big right now is food. There are parts of my day that I enjoy and in so many ways things have improved so much over the last few years. I can go through the day eating normally, healthily, not starving myself, just fine. And then I get home and eat terribly. Or a weekend comes and I eat terribly.
I am not surrendered. I am not crucified with Christ. I am operating in the flesh-I am discontent and operating on false beliefs instead of the truth that is in God's Word. There is the saying that "the problem with living sacrifices is that they crawl off of the altar." If you read this and you are a follower of Christ I would appreciate a prayer for a surrendered spirit that yields to God's presence and revealed truth for my life.
